asdfjk;

so i haven't written in a while so i have A LOT to say. well everything was going well for a while. my birthday was fun btw. then nationals came and that was okay. then we had like two weeks off. it was really good. idk. everything finally felt better. my grades were okay, things at home were okay, drill was okay, relationships were okay, then all of sudden everything comes falling down again. WTF ?!

i think it all started like yesterday. idk. i woke up at 4:30 to write my damn julius caesar essay that was due TWO weeks ago. my teacher let me turn it in late cause we were at nationals or whatever but i never did it. so i did it yesterday morning. and i was like half way done and my computer freezes ! i restarted it, hoping that it was saved but it wasnt. so i had to rewrite everything. i missed zero period cause of that. anyways then i get to school feeling better cause it was a minimum day but for some reason classes always feel longer on minimum days. aghh. i was excited though cause we were supposed to watch the hannah montana movie after school with my friends and sister. so that kept me going through the day. after school nareh tells me that she'll just meet me at the americana and sarah tells me that she can't go anymore cause she's grounded. so me, alexis and julia go on the bus. omg. the bus was soo fucking crowded and everyone was soo fuckin loud. that was the longest bus ride to the americana ever. anyways, we didnt really do anything. we went to the mall then rightaid then barnes and nobles. then alexis leaves. nareh says she's at burbank so she can't watch with me. after having to argue with my mom and sister, my mom finally decides to drop my sister off at the americana so we can watch the damn movie. but she adds another little girl for me to babysit. WTF ?! i can barely handle my sister. anyways luckily julia was still with me. the movie was really good. but julia had to leave afterwards so i was stuck with the two kiddos by myself. they said they wanted yogart so i bought them pinkberry and they complain that their stomachs hurt so they can't eat it. i was going insane. i called my mom to pick us up and in the car she was like lecturing me. akldsjf;

this spring break is starting off really horribly. why cant i have balance in life ? like when something bad happens, at least i have something good going on. but no. everything either has to be really good or just terrible. things can only get better right ?

aghhh. and boys suck ! wtf. do they purposely try to make me feel bad ? idk. i'm just really sensative lately, but damn, there's just so much crap for me to handle.