oregon

i'm going shopping today. yay ! no tax.

the wedding was fun yesterday. i loved the dj. he was so funny.
i miss glendale though :(

i dont know.

me sarah and marcelle went to the mall on friday and saw the cutest guyy. OMGGG ! ahaha. he was so cute. and we just stared at him. we shouldve went and talked to him or something cause he was by himself. ahh. whatever. maybe next time. aha.

yesterday's practice was actually fun. i was more energetic because we didnt spend forever on one thing so i wasn't tired.

it is 7:25 in the morning. what am i doing up ? i havent been getting enough sleep. well yeahh i have. but im still so tired. ahh ! okay. i'm going to go now. bye.

its hard.

today was actually a good day. i actually woke up early. made myself a sandwich, packed california rolls, oreos, arizona, water and coffee. aha. i was ready for the cst's man. well not knowledge wise, but snack wise, i was. lol. then i went to zero. yes. i actually went to zero period today. aha. we did a run through. then the sophomores and juniors went to a different room to do our cst. it was history today. it was pretty okay. i thought it'd be harder but i actually knew what it was talking about. after that, we went back to the dance room and did more run throughs. then it was lunch. then third period. it was okay.. aha. fifth period was okay too.

practice after school was okay. we're learning the finale. we didnt do much, we just set formations and did the first sections. its so hard =/

i was having a pretty okay day. thats actually a good day compared to my days the past couple of weeks. but for some reason, everytime i come home, something just has to ruin my fun. i encountered something today on the internet and it really hurt when i saw it. awhh. its okay. i'm going to be fine. i hope...

better

balance. well i finally have it. things at home are pretty good. my friends are great. but school. ehh. not such a great topic. i really have to raise my grades. its going to be hard, but not impossible. right ?! ahh !

there's so many exciting things coming up. there's oregon, then manong bj & ateh anna's wedding, then revue (buy tickets from me!), then the end of the school year, summer. ahh. can't wait. no more school :]

hmm. i really don't know how to put my emotions into words right now. its weird. i'm happy in some ways but disappointed and upset in others. and i wish i could just let it all out but i dont know how i can. i guess the truth does hurt sometimes and i can't handle it. unless... the truth i think i know isnt really the truth. what if its a lie to cover up the real truth ? did that make sense ? whatever. i'm lost in my own life. there's just too much going on. i try to take other people's advices, but its really hard when my emotions have a mind of its own. i really am trying to stop this insanity but its just not working. someday i wont feel this way. one day it'll be okay. when will that day come ?

yupp

lately, i've noticed that everytime i say something negative about my life, i would end it with "but its okay" even when its not. its become a habit. i'm not sure if its a good habit or a bad habit. i think i say it because i need assurance that things will be okay but maybe i'm just fooling myself when that because things really aren't okay but i'm forcing myself to pretend like it is. well hopefully, things will be okay.

i had this horrible headache today. but its gone, and i feel so much better.

justin timberlake is soo funny. where did sexy go ?

oh goodess.

hm. i seriously think that i have something wrong with me. i cant stay awake past 10 anymore. i try to stay awake so that i can do my homework. but i just cant. then i wake up late too. and on top of that, i fall asleep in class. what the hell is wrong with me ? maybe its cause i've missed so much sleep that my body just shuts down automatically. aghh. i dont know. at least i'm getting sleep :)

so i've realized thats its actually really easy to make me happy. this morning i got a text from my friend saying goodmorning and it just made my day. aha. i like knowing that people care. i get happy over the littlest things. like when someone just says hi or when someone says something nice. it always brings a smile on my face, no matter how horrible my day was. i've also realized that a lot of people are fake. they'll act really nice around me, but the second they turn their back, they have something to say. i'd rather have people be an asshole to me than have them be two faced. i want to know who my real friends are rather than everyone acting like someone their not. but whatever. i reread some of the things i blogged about, and i can be a really deep person. aha. i'm only deep when i'm all emotional though.

anyways, today .. nothing exciting. school. then practice with the newbies. awhh. some of them are really cute and remind me of me when i first joined. all quiet and shy. they'll eventually be loud and abnoxious. aha. cant wait for 0910 !

holaaa.

yupp. so life is strange. it has ups and downs. mostly downs. but i guess that's what makes the ups feel even better. yesterday we had to take pictures of our competition squads. i forgot how hard it was to put those damn costumes on. aha. OMGG. it was so awkward having to walk around school in our costume and make up. aha. everyone was all staring. but whatever. then there was school. ew. nothing exciting. then practice. we learned erik's routine. its highschool musical ! yay. aha. we got to leave early. so i went with sarah to pick up stacy. then we ate at subway. they were going to stay at my house because they didnt have their key, but when we got to my house, no one was home, and i didnt have the key either. we stood outside my house for like 15 minutes trying to find a way in but nothing. luckily my parents came right before we were about to leave. then my mom took me and sarah to ross and tj maxx. i got two really cute sandals and a really cute purse. aha. yay ! well thats what happened yesterday.

today.. was nothing exciting either. idk. ahh. well. my life is pretty boring. i had practice and thats pretty much all. ahh. yeahh. as boring as my life is, its pretty good right now. i hope it lasts. oh. i did my nails last night. they look okay, but i want to fix them. maybe later. i'm really tired right now. the weather is so freakin wierd. last week it was all hot. but now its cold in the morning but hot later. idk what to wear and stuff. aghh. whatever. thats pretty much all. so bye.