summertime

school ended. but it doesnt feel like summer. the excitement i usually feel on the last day of school wasn't there for me. idk. maybe cause it was finals. but it still feels like there's school. agh.. and it was like fuckin cold yesterday -__-

i hope i have a good summer. last year's summer was horrible ! i'm kind of sad that its the end of the year. i should be happy. but.. i really don't know.

brownies.

you know what i just realized ? i only blog when i'm depressed. actually, the only time i ever really think about my blogspot is when i'm depressed. hm. i'm not really depressed at the moment though, just kind of sad. well i'm like sad and mad and a little bit happy. aha. well there's a lot to be sad about, some things to be happy about, and theres only really one reason why i'm mad. but yeah whatever.

i can't wait till summer starts. well actually i can. i just want school to end. i think that glendale high is like the only school not on summer vacation yet. wtf ? this sucks. and its finals so fuck ! at least its finally getting hot. oh beach this saturday. woohoo ! i kind of don't feel like going anymore though. i mean like i want to go to meet the cerritos people but i don't want to because its the day after the last day of school, so i kind of just want to like rest that day. whatever, i'll see what happens.

i woke up at like 3:50 this morning to make brownies. aha. its in the oven right now. it is like almost 5. i'm sleepy but i dont want to go back to sleep. i kind of want mcdonalds for breakfast. maybe i'll get some if i get ready early enough. ohh. today's krizole's graduation too. hmm. i wanted to go, but i cant cause i still have school...

just checked on my brownies. and they're done. yay. anyways. i think i'm going to take a shower now. or maybe not.. its only five -__-

i dont know what to do!

OMG. this is probably one of the hardest decisions i will ever have to make. i'm so confused. i seriously can't think of anything else right now except for this stupid shit. and when i do think of something else, it just makes everything worst ! OMGGG. i'm about scream. why does it have to be so complicated. i need help. asdfjk;

everytime i THINK i've made up my mind something always comes in the way. and i appreciate everyone who has listened and given me advice, but i think it all comes down to what i have to do and what i think is right. FUCK ! but i don't know what RIGHT is. i really don't know anything right now.

FUCKKKKKK !

i hate being sick -__-
i feel like i'm dying.

the revue was okay btw.
idk. not as a good as last year. but it was okay.

summer in two weeks ! yay.
omg. i dont know what to do.
i'm so confused.

back !

so i'm in glendale. dude my pilot was really fast. and he sounded drunk. the plane was shakey and i was about to have a heart attack. it was scary ! ahaha. whatever. at least i'm home now. ohh. at the airport, this lady was about to take my luggage. aha. that wouldve sucked !

man. i have so much crap to do ! i have to make my outfits for the revue that is in a couple days, make up like three days of work for five classes. mother effer !

its three in the morning and i just finished my outline for my english essay -__-
i would go back to sleep but i have to clean my room and be at school by 5:50 ! ahhh.