OUCHHH !

damn, things are not going so well for me right now. i mean yeah, my life has never been perfect but i dont think i've ever felt this horrible before. well it started about a month ago. people do things without realizing that its hurting someone else. i dont think they were doing it intentionally, but it was pretty obvious that it was stupid. i guess its my fault for never saying anything about it, but i was just kind of hoping that they'd know what they were doing was wrong without me having to mention it. but i guess they never noticed and everyday, it just kept getting worse. well there's nothing i can do about it now, i guess =/

today, i found out some interesting news. damn, i dont want to say names. but like it hurts how i really thought these people were my friends and they backstabbed me just like that. i still cant believe what they did to me. great friends they turned out to be.

life at home sucks too. i'm like a slave here. today my mom woke me up at nine o`clock to do the dishes. dishes that HER guests ate from last night! i just keep getting yelled at and lectured. i hate being home. but its not like they let me out.

there was an ashley tisdale concert at the americana. i'm so damn short. i was being squished and dude, some people really need to take showers or buy deoderant cause they freakin STANK ! afterwards, i hung out with bryan, baby martin, julian, pow, sarah, yvonne, francis, julian's brother and martin's cousin. well for like a little bit. it was fun. i miss them.



ohhh. and seth bailey hooked me up with some tollhouse cookies and ice cream. thanks seth :)



i hope life gets better soon.. its not like it can get worse. the people closest to your heart are the people who can really hurt you the most. i just wish that they didnt do all at the same time. just smile and act like everythings okay. it will be, eventually.